My Own Skin
Sometimes I can feel really weird about my skin. I have mentioned before how I have problems with picking my skin. This is still something I struggle with on a daily basis but its much more manageable now. But it actually runs much deeper than that. I have a problem with feeling dirty. I have to shower everyday, if I don't it actually makes me cringe. When I feel dirty, my skin feels greasy and I am actually more likely to pick.
I don't know where its stemmed from, my parents never prevented me from washing when I was younger or anything like that and I cant even tell you when it started. I just know its how I feel!
If I sweat in the day, I feel like my clothes have to be washed and I need a shower. If my hair is greasy then the rest of my body must be by default dirty. If my skin is oily then I think about my pores being dirty.
It still has a large effect on my life but it doesn't stop me from doing things I want to do. I actually use my knowledge to my advantage. Having an extra shower a day isn't going to kill me, if anything it might actually stop me picking or feeling funny so if it helps I will do it. If I start to feel my skin "crawl" I try to make myself think of something I can do to make myself feel better, something that will make me feel clean. Instead of me instantly thinking of picking or hurting myself. Its all about breaking a cycle.
There are ways to manage to these things, it may not be a method that's taught in therapy or books but you can find your own way. If it works for you and it isn't damaging in another way then its a perfectly acceptable way to manage your anxiety or any other mental illness.
Stay Strong
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I don't know where its stemmed from, my parents never prevented me from washing when I was younger or anything like that and I cant even tell you when it started. I just know its how I feel!
If I sweat in the day, I feel like my clothes have to be washed and I need a shower. If my hair is greasy then the rest of my body must be by default dirty. If my skin is oily then I think about my pores being dirty.
It still has a large effect on my life but it doesn't stop me from doing things I want to do. I actually use my knowledge to my advantage. Having an extra shower a day isn't going to kill me, if anything it might actually stop me picking or feeling funny so if it helps I will do it. If I start to feel my skin "crawl" I try to make myself think of something I can do to make myself feel better, something that will make me feel clean. Instead of me instantly thinking of picking or hurting myself. Its all about breaking a cycle.
There are ways to manage to these things, it may not be a method that's taught in therapy or books but you can find your own way. If it works for you and it isn't damaging in another way then its a perfectly acceptable way to manage your anxiety or any other mental illness.
Stay Strong
-X-
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